Dasani water
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Hey everyone, I was hoping I could get some advice. I ended up going into anesthesia because it was the one specialty I thought was cool but was insulated from a lot of the things I found frustrating about general surgery. Physiology and pharmacology, thinking fast about patients as their conditions change in the OR, ICU, procedural stuff in pain and regional, I thought all of these things made it super appealing. My categorical intern year was split with medicine and surgery. I loved my intern year. I was pushing 80 hours a week if not more especially on the surgical rotations, but working with patients and with teams was incredible. I loved managing patients on the floor. I loved that the surgeons let us in the OR for some smaller cases, and surgery was fun. I felt like work was no longer work and had a bit of regret that I didn't do surgery. I remembered that I struggled overall at first with adjusting, but things worked themselves out.
I started CA1 year this year, and I'm struggling like i did last year with adjusting. My faculty members have told me I am doing a good job but I don't have that same spark that I did last year. I don't enjoy going to work. I get this pit in my stomach every morning I go into work and can't wait to go home because I don't feel well in the OR. I hate how I have to rush patients into the OR and don't get to actually chat with them anymore. The type of medical management in the OR for anesthesia is not as fun to me as the management that I got to do on the wards. Quite frankly I feel like I made a mistake in terms of picking a specialty. Even though I've been reading much more this year than last year, I don't get as excited as I did reading about anesthesia as compared to medicine/surgery. I know that this is an adjustment phase. I really want to love this field, or at least I want to feel like it will get better. Unfortunately, there are days where I just go home and lie down and do nothing because I feel so emotionally drained. I don't know why this is because clearly something drew me to it, otherwise I wouldn't have picked it. But I find it hard to go on day by day and I'm scared it won't get better and I'll be like this for the rest of my life.
I'm sure what I'm experiencing is an extreme case of difficulty adjusting to something new, and needing to get a new knowledge base and skill set. I was wondering if anyone else had any experiences remotely similar and how they dealt with it.
I started CA1 year this year, and I'm struggling like i did last year with adjusting. My faculty members have told me I am doing a good job but I don't have that same spark that I did last year. I don't enjoy going to work. I get this pit in my stomach every morning I go into work and can't wait to go home because I don't feel well in the OR. I hate how I have to rush patients into the OR and don't get to actually chat with them anymore. The type of medical management in the OR for anesthesia is not as fun to me as the management that I got to do on the wards. Quite frankly I feel like I made a mistake in terms of picking a specialty. Even though I've been reading much more this year than last year, I don't get as excited as I did reading about anesthesia as compared to medicine/surgery. I know that this is an adjustment phase. I really want to love this field, or at least I want to feel like it will get better. Unfortunately, there are days where I just go home and lie down and do nothing because I feel so emotionally drained. I don't know why this is because clearly something drew me to it, otherwise I wouldn't have picked it. But I find it hard to go on day by day and I'm scared it won't get better and I'll be like this for the rest of my life.
I'm sure what I'm experiencing is an extreme case of difficulty adjusting to something new, and needing to get a new knowledge base and skill set. I was wondering if anyone else had any experiences remotely similar and how they dealt with it.