SO, like most anyone taking the exam tomorrow, I am super stressed. This is my second time taking the exam. The first time I took the exam, I didn't prepare as much as I should because I had a lot of other stuff going on... Complicated pregnancy (2nd semester placental abruption followed by a post-partum hemorrhage) and then my mom passed away this past April.
I have a 10 month old and am a single mom and though its been difficult, I have been studying my butt off. I did well on my two PEAT exams (had never taken them before). Scored a 640 on the first and a 690 on the second this past weekend.
So I am super stressed. I have gone through a lot of difficult things this past year, and I am at my limits. Monday my dad calls me and tells me he got laid off from work.... adds to my stress, lovely timing but he didn't have anyone else to talk to. Tuesday, he got rehired, ok... I am ok calm again
Then today at lunch, he calls me and tells me he finally got the paperwork to sort out opening my mom's personal safety deposit box. I told him, "really, this is what you had to do today after having months to do it? Couldn't you have offered to babysit for me or something if you had the time so I could relax?"
Then at 4PM he calls me and tells me "I made an appointment at the bank. 2 security guards will be opening your mom's safe at 4:30. Do you want me to pick you up?" He knows i want to be there to open the safe... SO the day before my exam, when he knows I am super stressed out beyond belief, he makes an appointment to open my dead mom's safe???????????? Later he tells me he didn't realize it would add to my stress. She and I would go there when I was little and it would be a special trip and I would try on her jewelry. There is also a special charm bracelet in there that she got me for my first 6 birthdays, because she had been worried her cancer would come back and wanted me to have something to remember her by.... Just super emotional stuff.
SO now I am just crying and trying to calm down. And I needed to vent. And I know I just need to stay calm to pass, but it just is all too much right now.
If anyone had words of encouragement, I would appreciate it.
I have a 10 month old and am a single mom and though its been difficult, I have been studying my butt off. I did well on my two PEAT exams (had never taken them before). Scored a 640 on the first and a 690 on the second this past weekend.
So I am super stressed. I have gone through a lot of difficult things this past year, and I am at my limits. Monday my dad calls me and tells me he got laid off from work.... adds to my stress, lovely timing but he didn't have anyone else to talk to. Tuesday, he got rehired, ok... I am ok calm again
Then today at lunch, he calls me and tells me he finally got the paperwork to sort out opening my mom's personal safety deposit box. I told him, "really, this is what you had to do today after having months to do it? Couldn't you have offered to babysit for me or something if you had the time so I could relax?"
Then at 4PM he calls me and tells me "I made an appointment at the bank. 2 security guards will be opening your mom's safe at 4:30. Do you want me to pick you up?" He knows i want to be there to open the safe... SO the day before my exam, when he knows I am super stressed out beyond belief, he makes an appointment to open my dead mom's safe???????????? Later he tells me he didn't realize it would add to my stress. She and I would go there when I was little and it would be a special trip and I would try on her jewelry. There is also a special charm bracelet in there that she got me for my first 6 birthdays, because she had been worried her cancer would come back and wanted me to have something to remember her by.... Just super emotional stuff.
SO now I am just crying and trying to calm down. And I needed to vent. And I know I just need to stay calm to pass, but it just is all too much right now.
If anyone had words of encouragement, I would appreciate it.
