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I'm 2 months from being done with my first year but I'm really depressed most days and have bad bad anxiety. Coming into medical school I was happy and optimistic about life. However, I tore my ACL during intramurals early in the school year and my life has been pretty tough since. I went through my first year basically on one leg while also managing surgery, and the recovery process (4 month post op). I've been passing all my classes, but its taken an emotional toll and I just feel burnt out to the point that I don't go a day without pessimism about medicine and life. It got bad this past month when I started getting knee pain. Its so unbelievably hard to focus and memorize stuff if your knee aches.
I saw my surgeon who said its part of the course during the healing process but I'm scared my stress level is just making it worse. What if it doesn't get better by 2nd year board time, Im screwed! I feel like I pursued medicine because I was always decently "smart" and it was sort of the natural thing to do with encouragement from my parents. I went on mission trips, shadowed, did all the normal pre med stuff but you never really know what to expect until you start.
I'm afraid I'll drive myself to suicide if I continue medicine. I keep thinking I would be so much happier if I went back home with my parents and worked a "normal" job. Although, I also I'm also afraid of living a life of regret. I've talked to my school counselor but I haven't revealed the extent to which I'm feeling bad.
would really appreciate any advice or anything thanks guys
I saw my surgeon who said its part of the course during the healing process but I'm scared my stress level is just making it worse. What if it doesn't get better by 2nd year board time, Im screwed! I feel like I pursued medicine because I was always decently "smart" and it was sort of the natural thing to do with encouragement from my parents. I went on mission trips, shadowed, did all the normal pre med stuff but you never really know what to expect until you start.
I'm afraid I'll drive myself to suicide if I continue medicine. I keep thinking I would be so much happier if I went back home with my parents and worked a "normal" job. Although, I also I'm also afraid of living a life of regret. I've talked to my school counselor but I haven't revealed the extent to which I'm feeling bad.
would really appreciate any advice or anything thanks guys