The misalignment between what we are trained to do and what we are asked to do in clinical practice is burning me out and it seems to be getting worse. I was manically happy during my residency training, where I learned a range of skills and acquired broad knowledge that allowed me to create detailed formulations to explain the behavior of my patients, and then suggest and implement precise tools that could help with goals ranging from symptom relief to functional recovery. As someone who has always enjoyed inpatient work, I find that increasingly my task has almost nothing to do with that skillset, and that a comprehensive approach is not only challenging, but in someways counterproductive and disincentivized. Starting with diagnosis, this has become democratized to the point where patients have filed complaints when providers have not supported their self-identification with labels like ASD, OCD, and DID. I have now had two pseudo seizure patients be intubated because the hospital has liability concerns when they have more dramatic presentations and are unwilling to get behind the idea that the patients symptoms are psychogenic. I used to write a formulation in my notes but realized that nobody on the treatment team was remotely modifying their approach based on the specific features of the patient anyway. And as it relates to treatment, I am encountering a significant increase in resistance to any treatment approach that prioritizes longer term recovery (such as exposures) over short term symptom relief, and a great deal more overt abuse from non-psychotic patients who are more deliberately rude during interviews than I feel has been the case before. I don't really know what the point of most of my work is and the doctors in my system who do the best financially and emotionally are the one's who seem to completely disengage and simply go through the motions of making conservative dose increases during each encounter. Some of our on-call functions have been replaced by PA's who make a number of mistakes but as there is no real mechanism for tracking quality it has sort of just become accepted. I am lucky to be happy in my personal life but am thinking of going back to school after a few more years of saving up money. I am surprised to be at this point after years of naive optimism.