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Hey all, PGY-2 gen surg resident here, asking myself some heavy questions. I deliberated between GS and OB in med school, but ultimately picked the former, because the OR was my favorite part of OB. I loved deliveries almost as much, and clinic was fine, but not my favorite. I knew that my personality didn’t really match gen surg, and had seen my share of malignant personalities, but figured that dealing w/ some characters was just the price I’d have to pay. Fast forward to now: I still love to operate. But I never dreamed The treatment would be this horrible. I’m talking about attendings engaging in blatant sexual harassment, name calling, throwing objects, and even a couple of incidents of actual physical assault (which were “investigated” but promptly swept under the rug.) You are expected to start out on day 1 of intern year basically knowing how to function independently on the units, included no on specialty services like vascular. Questions or struggling with time management will get you a public lashing. Pgy-2’s on trauma run the entire trauma ER independently- the only input from attendings is when they b*tch you out in morning report for missing some minutia on a CT that not even radiology picked up. (Might have something to do w/ the 15-20 acutely ill traumas we get nightly. Just a thought.) They hold at least one person back per year as a scare tactic, and are notorious for doling out arbitrary and horrible evals. Several times intern year, I had to google attendings that had ripped me a new one on evals, because I had NEVER WORKED WITH THEM. (One of my seniors thinks this is a way of ensuring that people can’t switch to other programs, otherwise there would be a yearly mass-exodus.) Except for a precious few, the teaching is nonexistent and mostly consists of screaming/berating. I feel like my confidence in this specialty may have been permanently destroyed. I can’t be one of the guys, I can barely tolerate being in a room with these horrible people, and I just can’t “see” my future in this anymore. I have a great mentor and a few seniors/attendings that I trust, but they are the rare exception, and I get very little time working with them.
I have several friends in OB, as they rotate through ICU with us. They rave about their program and seem to be in the OR just as much, if not more, than I am. I am seriously considering trying to make this jump, but a)I’m worried that I may regret it because of less operative/procedural time, b) I realize that I am depressed and beaten down right now, maybe not the best tone to make huge decisions and c) most of the problem is my specific program. Unfortunately, switching to a different surgery program is even less practical for family/relocation reasons (plus the fact that my program would certainly find a way to stop it.)
I guess this was a long winded way of asking, how much are you in the OR? How happy are you with the surgical side of your training? If there are other OR junkies out there- is it enough?
I have several friends in OB, as they rotate through ICU with us. They rave about their program and seem to be in the OR just as much, if not more, than I am. I am seriously considering trying to make this jump, but a)I’m worried that I may regret it because of less operative/procedural time, b) I realize that I am depressed and beaten down right now, maybe not the best tone to make huge decisions and c) most of the problem is my specific program. Unfortunately, switching to a different surgery program is even less practical for family/relocation reasons (plus the fact that my program would certainly find a way to stop it.)
I guess this was a long winded way of asking, how much are you in the OR? How happy are you with the surgical side of your training? If there are other OR junkies out there- is it enough?