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- Mar 21, 2019
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Changed me tremendously.
I see myself as more of my job than I am the mere human being I was before the job. In some ways this made me greater. In other ways lesser. Great: I'm a respectable physician, I do good work for the community, it pays well and doing something I believe in. This greater-vs-lesser isn't 50-50. IT's way more pros than cons.
Less: Cause I take the job very seriously I let a lot of other things that would make me feel content fall by the wayside. I have to often times remind myself I'm just a human being and need to do the human stuff.
E.g. If I take time off to enjoy myself I feel bad that I don't treat people. I think of the people I could've helped that I didn't help.
It's not completely bad cause I do enjoy the work, but if it's only work I do sometimes feel my soul suffer.
The job consumes me but at the same time I'm so lucky. Very few people could have a job that so positively impact so many people, pays well, and is so enjoyable (or consuming).
Sometimes in the Batman comics they mention that Bruce Wayne doesn't call himself Bruce in his head, he calls himself Batman cause he thinks he's more that than human. This can be good or bad depending on how you see it. Certainly bad if the person's working too hard.
And here I am feeling bad when I'm off the clock or away from work because I don't feel bad for being away/not learning more/etc.